Your ceremony voice and your 2am voice are two different people. The one who holds space so beautifully would be horrified by the one eating ice cream alone wondering what's wrong with her. You've done so much work. And somehow you're still performing "healed."
Your Devotional Signature
The Unintegrated Frequency
When your practice holds everyone but you
Resonance = where your energy naturally flows
Heart Alchemy = where it's ready to evolve
Devotion that leaves part of you out isn't complete β it's just performance.
Want to discover your own signature? Take the Devotion Diagnostic β
What you're about to read goes deeper than your quiz result. It's a mirror β showing you where your energy has been flowing and where it's ready to evolve.
This is not a personality test. It's a reading of how your energy is actually moving.
What You're Moving Through
The Pattern You're In
This might sound like you:
- Your meditation practice is solid but you still lose it with your kids
- You can hold space for everyone except yourself
- People think you've "figured it out" β and you're terrified they'll see behind the curtain
- You give beautiful advice you don't take yourself
- The woman on your website isn't the one crying in the bathroom
- You've done SO much work and you still feel like you're faking it
Here's what's actually happening: You've built a beautiful spiritual practice. You know what matters to you. You can feel when you're aligned. But your body doesn't trust it.
There's a version of you who shows up in sacred space β grounded, wise, connected. And there's a version of you who falls apart when no one's watching. They don't know each other. You're not fake. You're split.
The work you've done is real. But somewhere along the way, you left parts of yourself out of it. The messy parts. The scared parts. The parts that don't fit the image. Now your practice holds everyone but you.
This isn't a flaw β it's a signal. Your energy is ready to move from intentional frequency toward integrated frequency.
What This Reveals
The Deeper Dynamic
You're good at this. You know what you're devoted to. You can feel the difference between aligned and off. That's real β and it's actually rare.
But knowing what you're devoted to isn't the same as being whole inside it. Right now, your spiritual self runs the show while your human self watches from outside the circle. They're not enemies β they're just strangers.
"I know who I am in ceremony. I don't know who I am in my kitchen at 6pm."
Here's what wants to happen: The messy parts need to be included. Not fixed. Not healed. Included. The woman who knows exactly what to say in circle AND the woman who hides in her car before going inside β they're both you. Integration isn't about making the messy parts go away. It's about letting them be part of your devotion.
Your practice doesn't need to change. But it needs to hold all of you β including the parts you've been leaving at the door.
Quick Practices
Three Ways to Work With This
β¦ Try one of these today β¦
Morning Practice
Name who's showing up
Before you start your practice, ask: "Which part of me is here right now?" The centered one? The anxious one? The one who wants to skip this? Let them all stay.
Truth Practice
Stop performing for yourself
Notice when you're being "spiritual" instead of being real. What would you do right now if no one was watching β including the inner witness?
Integration Practice
Include the mess
Tonight, before bed: "What part of me did I leave out today?" The tired part. The resentful part. The part that wanted to quit. Acknowledge her. She's part of this too.
Why It Matters Now
What Opens From Here
When all of you gets to be in the room β not just the pretty parts β something relaxes. You stop maintaining two lives. The exhausting performance ends. And the practice that was holding everyone but you? It finally holds you too.
Your devotion doesn't get smaller when you include the mess. It gets real.
You stop performing healed β and start actually being held.What People Discover
"I had this whole spiritual persona but I'd still panic-eat alone in my car. I thought that meant the work wasn't working. Turns out that part needed to be included, not fixed."
"The day I stopped pretending I had it together in circle β and just cried about my actual life β was the day my practice became mine."
Your practice is real.
Now let it hold all of you.
Want to discover your own signature? Take the Devotion Diagnostic β
Your Invitation
Ready to Work With This Pattern?
This diagnostic revealed where you are. The deeper work teaches you to stop splitting yourself in two β so your practice can finally hold the whole woman, not just the presentable one.
You've been performing wholeness.
Now learn to actually live it.
The Mystic's Cycle is a 7-week journey through the Seven Pillars β where the messy parts finally get to be included.
Shanti
Founder of Devotion Rising
After 25+ years of spiritual training, turning down six record deals to maintain her authentic voice, and channeling 21 Divine Beings in her book "Devotion: The Power to Create," Shanti now helps spiritually accomplished women direct their devotional energy consciously β transforming scattered patterns into sovereign power.
